So, I've been absent without official leave for awhile now. I didn't exactly MEAN to. It just happened. I got caught up in life, I suppose. But now seems like as good a time as any to rant my feelings to the internet.
I'm going to a new school since I last posted, and in short, it sucks. I miss all of my friends. I don't feel like I can be myself. There's lots of peer pressure. Everyone hates each other, and they talk about each other behind their backs all the time. It almost makes me wonder if anyone says anything about me. You know what Oscar Wilde says, "The only thing worse than being talked about, is not being talked about." But yeah, it sucks. And I've been feeling really bad lately. Probably because I haven't been talking my anti-anxiety/depressants lately. *laughs dryly*
And the friends that I can get in contact and hang out with occasionally... I feel like they're drifting away. Like, even if I went to them with my problems, they would laugh at them. Because that's the only thing anybody seems able to do lately. Laugh. It might not be at me, but when I try to look at something seriously, everyone makes fun of it.
I don't feel like I have anyone to turn to. Heck, even my own mom makes fun of me practically everyday. Everyone seems so foreign and menacing. Even friends I've had for a couple years that I talk to online all the time suddenly seem like different people. Meaner, always laughing.
I really don't know what else to say, I guess I just wanted to get some stuff off my chest. I'll check back in later, I guess.
On D Brink
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